morgajel

So I’ve gotten some sleep, Ian is finally eating, and we’re all feeling a bit better. I don’t regret what I said in the first one, because it was all true, but things have changed. He’s now crying when he wants something, rather than to inform us the sky is blue. He’s eating so Jackie’s feeling better, and most importantly it’s quiet around here.

Tip to new fathers- don’t let the in-laws stick around the first 2 days in the hospital- they can’t help, all they’ll do is get the kid sick. That’s why they have nurses. Sorry [people who don’t want to be named]- I know you guys wanna see him, but having you here was as much a stress as everything else.

So I sat down and talked with jackie about the stress that caused that last tirade-

• too many people
• not enough sleep
• not enough showers
• bad back/bed combination
• forgot my back meds
• not eating good (mcdonalds and burger king in 12 hours)
• the constant screaming and general difficulty of Ian

Right now Ian is sleeping on jackie’s chest after feeding for a solid 30 minutes, and she’s just as zonked out as him. So yeah, while I don’t regret the previous post, things have changed. It’s important to me to document the whole story, not just the good.

wtf did I do?

Hold him, he cues that he’s hungry, you try to feed him, he sceams. The stupid lamaz class didn’t cover that. How about this- Jackie’s boobs are the wrong shape. wtf does that mean? They’re not square, they look like boobs to me. Ian screams. STOP SCREAMING. Not eating, but crapping like crazy- I don’t know how he ISN’T losing weight.

ugh. Slept on fugly chair now by back is all messed up. Ian slept in the other room. I was woken up by jackie trying to feed him, and of course him refusing to eat and screaming that bloodcurdling scream.

Please stop screaming.

He’s finally feeding, but who knows. Whether or not it’ll keep up is unknown. He’s sleeping now- thank god he’s sleeping. Ian, you are not starting out on the right foot.

-Jesse